"You have 60 days to be out."
I hate those words. On the move again. Even though we are moving literally walking distance away, it still sucks. It's not our house anymore. No more writing on the walls, all the rooms are white and plain. It's huge, though. And I get to stay in the same house at the same church and the same job. My siblings are at the same schools. I'm so thankful for that. I'm going to miss this house though. My yellow, marker colored walls will be painted over, new carpet will cover the drawings on my floor. Memories will be covered up. I will miss this house, living on Ocean Cove.
Tomorrow is the first night in my new house. I won't be driving here after work. I'll be driving over there. I'll be in yet another home. I'm really trying to be grateful that I'm in the same town, that God has blessed me with that. It'll just take some adjusting to.
Next week is Spring Break...which means a 20-hour work week for me, and a 3 day weekend! And then the next weekend is Fine Arts. So excited!
I love my job. It's amazing. God couldn't have given me a better job at this point in my life.
Loving life at the moment. I pray it stays like this forever!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
You Found Me
"Where were you when everything was falling apart?
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Why'd you have to wait to find me?"
I think I pretty much just figured out why I can never say no to people...
Because if I say no, they might stop asking me to do stuff all together, and I don't want that. I just don't want this load by myself. I have so much I was asked to do and not enough time to do it. It's so overwhelming. And I can't say no now, because I already said yes. And if I don't do it, that's more everyone else has to do. Everyone else who has a job or school. I feel like such a bum, such a failure, so rejected, because I can't find a freaking job. Out of all the applications I've filled out, I've had 1 interview. I feel so bad. I'm so stressed out, for what? Nothing...I shouldn't have to do all this myself. I should just learn to man up and say no.
"Why'd you have to wait to find me?"
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Why'd you have to wait to find me?"
I think I pretty much just figured out why I can never say no to people...
Because if I say no, they might stop asking me to do stuff all together, and I don't want that. I just don't want this load by myself. I have so much I was asked to do and not enough time to do it. It's so overwhelming. And I can't say no now, because I already said yes. And if I don't do it, that's more everyone else has to do. Everyone else who has a job or school. I feel like such a bum, such a failure, so rejected, because I can't find a freaking job. Out of all the applications I've filled out, I've had 1 interview. I feel so bad. I'm so stressed out, for what? Nothing...I shouldn't have to do all this myself. I should just learn to man up and say no.
"Why'd you have to wait to find me?"
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