Fading...Falling...Failing

Do you ever get in that mood where you just feel like crying and there's no specific reason behind it? I've been in that mood a lot lately. Tears just start flowing, and most of the time I don't know why. Sometimes I feel useless, because people come to me with issues and situtations where they need advice or guidance or just someone to listen to them, and no matter what I tell them, whether it helps them or not, I feel like I could have done better. I feel like my relationship with God is fading. I know it's not Him, because He never leaves us, so then it must be me. My relationship with Him could be so much better. I don't know what to do, what to pray, what verses to read that will help me. I feel like a failure sometimes. Like if I would have done something different, went back to school in September, put more money away than I did, turned left that one time instead of right anything, then my outlook on my life would be different, better. I don't know who I am in Christ. I don't know who I am period. I feel so lost sometimes, so alone. I feel insignificant and unimportant. Sometimes I feel like nobody cares. I know none of that is true, but sometimes I can't help feeling that some of the relationships I'm in are one way, does that make sense? Like I'm the only one giving anything. I need Jesus, so badly, and I don't know how to get him back like before. I don't know what to pray. I feel like just crying and pretending he's holding me, because somehow, that feels comforting.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm just causing drama in my own life, looking for attention. I don't mean to. That's not my intention. I don't know who to talk to. I feel bad talking to God, because I haven't talked to Him in so long, like really talked to Him. I just want things back the way they were a few months ago.