Word Vomit

So I just feel like typing today. Word vomit. That's all that's gonna come out. I don't even know what I'm gonna type. This should be fun.

So my brother decided to throw a brick in the air today. Just throw it up and catch it. That's stupid in itself. But he then proceeded to throw it around the vehicles parked in my driveway. He threw it up, and it came down, through the back window of my aunt's van. Boy, that was fun. That's two windows broken on that vehicle now.

My vehicle still lacks insurance. Geico kicked me off because they heard I don't live with my parents anymore. Silly rumors.

I absolutely adore my cousin Kairi. She's the smartest two-year-old I know. And she's adorable. She's going to be a big sister soon. Pretty much any day now. Little Lydia Jade. Can't wait for her.

I have come to the realization that I hate Christmas shopping. I don't know what to get anyone. Mom and Dad's were easy this year. And Milissa's I found by chance. And Ricky is young enough that you can still get him anything and he'll be happy. I got both Christmas and birthday for him. My problem is when it comes to friends. I don't go and get every single one of my friends a present, but I do get for those I'm close to, I try to go the extra mile besides a card and some cute little saying. Only I don't know what to get them this year, and I don't have much time left.

Sarah's departure date is creeping up. I think we are distracted by Christmas to realize that it's not terribly far away, and once Christmas passes, there really isn't much time. I'm excited for her, and scared for her, and extremely happy for her. I can't wait for her dream to begin. I hope we have a chance to have some Lovely-Mandarin time before she goes, but I'm not sure if that's going to happen, seeing as half of Florida wants their time with her as well.

I am so confused about where I should stand. Is it too soon? Is it "fair game"? Is it "betraying" a friendship? All I know is every time I think about this particular subject, my heart smiles. I don't know if that's necessarily a good thing at this point. I'm praying for God's guidance on this one. Really. I don't want to even think anything that will distract me from Him, and so far, I've been failing. Forgive me, Lord. Help me keep my mind straight and my eyes looking forward.

There's one kitten left. Tigger Felicity DeFran-Greco. Damieon combined all the names because Angelic and I kept arguing. Poor little kitten. She will always be Tigger to me.

I like the missions drama. A lot better than last year's. I am in love with the chorus:
"Give me Your eyes for just one second,
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missin'
Give me Your love for humanity
Give me Your arms for the broken hearted,
The ones who are far beyond my reach.
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten.
Give me Your eye so I can see."

The bold is my favorite line of the whole song. I want that. I want to be there for the broken hearted, I want to use my arms to extend God's love to them. I want to hold them and cry with them and tell them it's all going to be okay, because God loves them, and He can fix everything if you only ask and believe that He can. That's what I want.